The Blame Game

THE BLAME GAME

 (1-24-2011)

So go ahead and just blame me

For not having the rose-colored glasses to see

You were doing your best not the best you could do

If it’s good enough for you then it should be good enough for me too

So go ahead and blame me

I am the reason your life is aggrieved

It’s too bad that its yourself that you can’t see

So go ahead blame me

If only I could have waited or held on for the final change

We would be a happy family and not dysfunctionally deranged

But oh no I had to put a thorn in the roses

Because I said enough is enough no more poses

You need a reason to explain

How someone like me could leave an awesome man who’s you

I was shallow, I couldn’t understand

That the sacrifice for family time was part of the greater plan

Success, that’s what you were aiming for

But instead I choose to throw in the towel and walk out the door

Once again I am to blame

For all the misery of this divorce and all your pain

I know, it’s all my fault because I chose not to see

The necessity of making sacrifices for business opportunities

It excuses the disconnect of the water or the lights

There really was no reason for me to take flight

So you are right, I am to blame

For not backing you up when business waned and waned and waned

To err is human and the third time’s the charm

Is that the point where our love suffered harm

Every chance you get you stick me with barbs

Trying to make small souls think I’m the fraud

So once again I will take the blame

But I won’t stand down or hold my head in shame

Do you feel better now, think you’re the saint

Because I took the blame for all the marriage strain

Do you feel good knowing there is nothing you did

To make me walk away without consulting the kids

So really it’s okay, place the blame on me

I will keep my eyes wide shut because you will see

The finger you’re constantly point at me

Has three pointing directly back at you

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I Simply Don't Exist

I don't think you could have expressed to me

By your words, actions, or deeds

How dead I really am to you

Finally I get it

It's as if all the intimate feelings we shared

Disappeared in thin air

It's as if the times when things were going good 

Never happened

It's as if my face and body in every picture we've ever taken

Were cut out, I don't exist

It's as if the children we created in love

Were born by an immaculate conception

I don't exist

Finally I get it.

The tears I cry, you won't wipe away

The pain I feel, you wouldn't numb

If my heart would bleed, you wouldn't seal the wound

Cause I ceased to exist to you

It's sad but true

At one point I was your friend

I was your lover

I was your confidant

But time grew us apart 

And I broke your heart

Even a dog is given food when it whines

Even a dog is given water when it pants

But when i knock on your door

I can't cross the threshold

But when I ask for help

I am told not from here

When I seek for understanding

I get no sympathy, not even empathy

I don't exist

So you've moved on

What we had is all gone

But what happened to forgiveness

Don't we need it to get along

Because as fate would have it

We have at least 10 years to go

By then the youngest 
Will become old

I must be lower than a friend

Because they can be heard

I must be lower than a co-worker

Because you can work as a team

I must be lower than a stranger

Because they are given common courtesy

I must be lower than your enemy

Because at least they get a passing glance

Finally i get it, I simply don't exist

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